RANDOM

"Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?"

Quoted from the movie Evan Almighty

Just a little something i wanted to share.

L.O.N.E.L.I.N.E.S.S

L.O.N.E.L.I.N.E.S.S

The feeling of loneliness kills! It eats you inside out. Showing how dull and lifeless your life can be. With no where to go and not knowing what to do. Guess that's how i'm feeling right now.LONELY. Being the only child in the family is tough. Not being able to share your problems with your brothers or sisters and well,parents don't always understand do they? They're there for you but then again, they're just not on the same page as you are. It's hard sometimes, being alone and all. Well, friends do help you out. Pushing your thoughts and problems a side when you're together hanging out, laughing it out, having fun chilling and partying. But once you get home, it's all back to square one. Everything comes back to you. Your problems, your thoughts. Guess we just can't run away from our problems. I seriously envy some of my friends. People like Jon Chong, Matt. They're my brothers and my role models! You just don't see the word "PROBLEM" written on their faces. Don't see them being lonely. They're always on their toes! Having plans and all. Oh well, i should really learn from people like them. Not making their problems visible. Hazel is one good example too! Always happy and cheerful! just don't see the sign of loneliness in her! Sometimes, i question myself, whether do i belong to the group of friends i have, somehow there's a feeling of being left out and the feeling of not belonging there. Guess your mind starts to wonder when you're alone. Have you ever gotten the feeling of being used? having people that comes to you only when they need you or when they do not have anyone to go to. Being treated as the last resort? Just isn't fair is it? People whom we call friend doing this to us just doesn't look right at all. So yea. Guess that's about it for tonight. Am having my final paper tomorrow and i'm still wide awake with plenty of thoughts in my head! How "WONDERFUL!". All i can do now is pray and hope i get through this soon!