REJECTION...

REJECTION

It has been happening to quite a number of people i know lately including myself. You fall for someone but then the person you like doesn't have feelings for you. I would say that it is the saddest thing that could happen to a person. It's like a sharp arrow piercing through your heart or having the feeling that your heart weighs a thousand times heavier and it just sinks and it'll never float back up again. It's no fun! Not at all! Does time heal? Does it? To me i don't think it will. "Though many have said that wounds and scars take time to heal. But it does not heal totally. The pain lessens and the wounds are covered by scar tissues. But the scar remains for the rest of our lives." I believe in that. Sometimes we just hope that chances would be given to us and hoping to make the best out of it. But not everybody is given that chance. Hoping that people would see our sincerity. But not everybody is lucky. Hoping that people would see how much we mean it. But not everybody sees it. Conclusions are made before chances are given and before giving it a shot. We don't get the chance to try. Not even one. The after effect of REJECTION are AWKWARDNESS and DISTANCE! It all changes to fast! Things become different. You feel awkward towards each other, feeling that you're being so far apart from each other. Awkwardness comes in and distance takes place. You're no longer talking to each other as much as you used to anymore! It changes you! Not being your ownself anymore! You just don't feel the same.It's NOT NORMAL! Not at all! and all you're wishing for is to turn back time and you just wanna make it right again! Or just wishing that you would lose your memory as if the pain was never there!

Screw Up!

We had our presentation for Sociology last week. We thought we were ready and went up to present with confidence. We were WRONG! so WRONG that we got "Shot" at really badly. Honestly, this was the first time we were really getting shot at that bad and it was only our 2nd presentation starting from the very first semester till now. The first one was during IMC and the presentation was only among class mates. This time we were presenting it infront of the entire class which was the combination of March, June and the August intake. It's a really huge class! Our seniors were also invited to the presentation and our dear lecturer Mr. Mark was also there. It wasn't easy for us at all and it was really hard for all of us to swallow after the presentation. Everyone in the group looked down and dissapointed. Not wanting to say a word. Everyone just wanted to head home and cry their eyes out! Never thought that college life would be like this. Other groups did better than us! Way better! What went wrong? What did we say? We were confident! We were pretty sure with our points! But then it all back fired. Who's the blame? NO ONE! It's a group assignment! No individual should be blame. It's the group's fault. We did it wrongly. In groups there are no "I" but only "WE" exist! Eventhough we did badly this time. We SCREWED UP! But we're gonna take it as a lesson! A lesson that's gonna be in our heads for the rest of our lives! Something that we will remember. We're gonna do BETTER in our following assignments! To the other groups. Well done! not being sarcastic but it comes from the bottom of my heart!

5 Months Of College Life!

So here i am again, infront of my laptop thinking what to blog about this time. hmmm....Honestly,am not good in this at all. But then i guess with things going through my mind and with the problems i'm facing, i just gotta do something to get my mind some peace and well give you guys a little bit of me.lol... Will be blogging about college again. It's been 5 months now being in college. Currently in my 2nd semester. Life's not exactly sweet in college. People may think that college life is fun and all. But let me tell you, it's NOT always SWEET! Well, 5 months being with my june intake mates! Getting to know them more and more! Seeing them everyday! Expecting the unexpected from them! Wow! Really makes it interesting! I guess we can never ever judge a book by it's cover. Things we expect doesnt go the way we want it to be! Right? Anyhow, my fellow June intake mates are really great! From people that i don't really talk in the beginning, till we're talking non stop right now! cool huh? Guess that's the ultimate thing in college. FRIENDS! So let me tell you guys about my mates after 5 months of knowing them. First up,Matt! He's still great! From the beginning till now! Still the happy go lucky care free kind of person! JOKER! Been sticking with each other from the very beginning of the semester and he's still my bro from another mother and father! hahaha.... My drinking buddy! Has always been there for me whenever i need him! A very understanding dude! Thanks for everything Bro! You the man! lol... Sue as usual is the bubbly type of person! Still straight forward and direct! That's what i like about her! You don't really get straight foward people nowadays! Only bunch of pretenders! Acting all nice and friendly infront of you but talk shit behind your back! Thanks Sue! There's also Hazel! The kid in class! lol... May seem childish at times but she's always there to bring the kid in us back! Gotta go back to kid mode at times right? lol... She's nice! Terima kasih! :-) Next up would be Cindy. She's the audience in the class.whenever me and Matt crak up jokes, she'll be the first to laugh! That motivates us alot! hahahaha.... Thanks Cindy! although she's busy with her boyfriend most of the time.(or maybe all the time)lol... She'll always have the time to hear me out and give me her oppinion! She's the mature one in class! lol... She's gone through alot in the recent months and yet taking things calmly and cool! *Salute* :-) and next up we have Ai Ling. She's the new member of our group.lol... In the very beginning of the semester we werent really talking and well,she didnt like me. Thought that i was mean! everybody thinks this way! Don't know why la.hahaha....but now,we're cracking jokes and talking like nobodies business man! lol... She's really a nice person! once you get to know her! BOOM! lol... She's also our "Mamak Kaki". Subaidah! lol... tried her first tosai earlier but then didnt like it and said she would NEVER want to eat it AGAIN! She's a good listener too! Very understanding! Thanks Ai Ling! :-) Next up! Mr. Chen Kah Loon or also known as Chris! That's my name! hahaha but then sharing is caring right? giving is charity? hahahaha... well, didnt think that he would be a person that i could relate to from the beginning. Eventhough we did talk since the starting of first semester i didn't think that we would have anything in common. But honestly, we do have quite a number of things in common! He's gone through what i've gone through or am going through right now. He thinks the same way as i do! As a conclusion he's really a nice guy! Being able to relate to him and all! Thanks Man! For your advices. Oh ya, he's also the newest member of our group too! lol... ok,6 down 6 more to go! lol... we have Jay and Phin Hwei, the couple in the class. well, they're not that bad afterall. I know i know, the teasing in class and all. But then hey, they've been together for about 4 months already and i really admire them! Just don't seem to lose the love although they see each other in class EVERYDAY! They're still passionate about each other! Lovey Dovey! lol... We have Angel! She's the dancer in the class! All about dance! non stop! lol... She's nice! Hard to understand her at times! lol... She's also gone through alot within the past 5 months! Had a hard time but now have found her 2nd half! lol... A good advisor too! lol... moving on we have Shanti. She is the quite one in class. Nice house! lol... Very friendly! Totally! Never seen her angry before! Seriously! From semester one till now! No anger! Awesome huh?! :-) She's a nice girl. Lastly we have the two best friends in class. Nisa and Illy! The ones that i'm unable to identify all the time! Have to try calling one of their name and hoping for one to turn but everytime you call out one of their name, both will also turn and look at me! That makes it hard wei! lol... But now, i know who they are d! lol... Come on! It's been 5months already! How can i not know my classmates name! But i still like to tease them once in a while! lol... They're really nice people! Friendly! Additional to the audience in class! They just laugh! lol... So yea,those are my cool classmates! They're awesome! Guess you can never judge a book by it's cover huh? As there's always a surprise/climax in every book. They've been great! Thanks Alot Guys! Special Thanks To: Matt! Sue! Ai Ling! Hazel! Cindy! Kah Loon! Shanti! Jay! Phin Hwei! Nisa! Illy! and Angel! This post is specially dedicated to all of you! :-)